"Cool" Reflections of 2012

As I sit here and reflect on the memories of 2012, the recollection that comes to the forefront of my mind is the incredible, intense, almost irresistible urge that I had to… CUS.

I do not mean “C U Soon”; I mean profanity, swearing and cursing.  But I also don’t mean out loud.  The constant swearing was mostly in my head but I will admit that there was a lot of it.  A cursing mantra would play in my head as I ran to take the chef knife, the bleach or the permanent marker out of little Bubba’s hand.  Swear words would fire off (in my head) as Caller ID warned me of a school calling.  Oh, the examples are endless.

For the most part I don’t think that curse words are really necessary.  In email and on Facebook, cussing seems rude and uncalled for.  So while I will not include any examples of the types of cursing that went on in my head, they are implied because sometimes a properly place swear word can sum the situation up perfectly.  

I am not even sure there is one thing that set the cursing tone for 2012; it just seemed to be a constant dribble of one thing after another, after another, after another.  I realize that everybody’s got something.  I know; I do; I really get it.  I am just tired of mine right now. 

 

I am tired of:

•  Weekly blood work
•  Weekly shots
• Shots in bottoms
• Weekly infusions
• Flu
• Pneumonia(s)
• Mystery rashes
• ER visit(s)
• Doctor visits (Love my medical peeps!)
• CT scans
• Bone marrow biopsies
• Antibiotics
• Fungal infections
• Antibiotics that cause fungal infections
• Ridiculous medical bills
• People calling my girls “sir”
• Not being able to have visitors because somebody is always sick
• Afraid to have visitors because somebody might get sick
• Washing machines that flood my house
• Slapping a smile on my face every day because it is what is expected

And I am tired of being right!

I want to be that mom that the doc says (in her head) “Hmmm this mom is off her rocker” and (to my face)”Everything checks out great, see you at your next well-child visit”.  But I am not that mom.  I am the mom that curses in her head because she is right!!!

In all fairness, there were SO many wonderfully, incredible things that happened in 2012 but my inner Alanis Morissette needed to get that "Happy New Year" out.  I will try to keep the cursing down to a minimum both out loud and in my head.