Do you have that closet? You know the one, the closet by the front door that instead of hanging up the coats everybody just throws them on the floor. And it’s not just coats, it’s the back pack, the shoes, and the clothes from yesterday that didn’t make it into the dirty clothes hamper.  Maybe this closet is under the stairs with the vacuum and the 3 computer monitors and the box of receipts, and the lost library book that nobody can find because the bag of Goodwill stuff got tossed in there after you missed the pickup date.  

Everybody’s got one (maybe 2?) of these closets, right?  Tell me you do! Most of the time you can close the door of the closet when company comes over and all is good, right? There are, also, certain people that you don’t mind if they peek into that closet because they don’t care that you don’t hang up the coats, you’ve seen their coats too.  I, personally, just don’t like my coats hanging out ALL the time and I still hope that one of the kids doesn’t walk by and decide to just open the door of that closet to expose the mess on the floor.

Having 3 kids with a rare genetic condition can get your closet pretty messy, pretty fast. There are sometimes when you just can’t keep up with the amount of clutter that gets thrown into the closet and it seems like there is never any time to straighten it out.  Well, the last 2-3 weeks, my closet has just gotten way too full and coats are not just spilling onto the floor, they are projectile vomiting out of the closet. My closet isn’t just hurling its mess onto family and friend, I feel like everybody who sees me gets a coat thrown on them. I have no idea if strangers can tell that my TTD closet exploded.

But I get it now…seems like every day I understand a little bit more and today I understand that I will really never be able to CLOSE the closet door completely. There is just always going to be WAY too much stuff in there.  To know me, is to know a person who struggles and champions 3 kids with a rare, incurable condition and that makes my closet explode so I WILL always have a coat or two hanging out.  I need to be ok with that. Thanks to all my fabulous friends, family, and support people who understand me better than I ever will and who simply and kindly hand me a hanger so I can tidy up my TTD closet a little bit at a time.